teenage phases

so it's my birthday on monday. rather good i think. turning 15, seems pretty big to me at the moment :) i get birthday cake too! i'm going to have to burn that off :/ i'm fat you see. i need to loose weight sharpish. i don't want to be morbidly obese. did you know that the UK is the second fattest country in the world! compared to other countries we are tiny, so something like that is rather ma-hoo-sive. and i don't want to be one of those fat people. so starting yesterday i'm on a diet and intending to loose weight. i want to be at least 6.5/7 stone by december. hopefully this will be achieved.

everyone tells me i'm slim, but they just don't see me the way i see myself. i see fat thighs, and a podgy stomach. i also see a face that has spots (arrgh!) and hair that won't stay straight at all. it's fair to say i have a lot of body-hate going on atm. and i hate it, help?!

Decisions. Decisions. Decisions.

I hate making decisions. i always pick the wrong choice, and then everything comes tumbling down. anyway, i'm faced with a new one. i really love Frankie Sandford's hair. A lot. and i'm considering having my hair done the same way...but i'm unsure if it will suit me?

the look i want...

what my hair looks like.

i'm still deciding what to do, so if anyone reading this has opinions, let me know, because i want to have a vague idea before i pitch it to my mother. thanks a bunch.

love and hugs.

bye.

                                                      

why hello again :)

so yet again, i'm posting in this blog on a saturday, starting to seem like a routine tbh :). anyway, i went swimming at the marriott today, my grandma works there so it's easy to get in. improved considerably, very proud of myself. we're going to my aunts house after dinner, which i am looking forward to, because i get to sit in the car and listen to my new Saturdays album and JLS on the way there and back, which is always good :). i'm rather looking forward to my dinner of lasagne, chips and onion rings, smells divine if i don't say so myself.

i had a decent week at school, year 10 isn't so bad so far. except my option IT class. it's not a bad subject, pretty fun actually as we are making a website. but i don't like the fact that i basically have. no one. :/ what a bummer. but ah well, mum says i'll get more done if i don't talk to anyone, so that's better i s'pose? :/ i had a 'controlled assessment' in english yesterday, went pretty good, it was writing, which is my best english subject basis thingy. it's a shame it doesn't count for anything, apparently it's just to get an idea of the level we are working at, so i guess it does count for something after all? apparently we have to do 'controlled assessments' because they've stopped coursework, some people used to use the internet or a utensil called MUM to do their coursework in the past, so they've stopped that. it's a shame that our first monitor point (proper assessment thing) is a speaking and  listening. i don't excel in that, better try really hard then :/ i've had fun maths lessons this week, the arithmatic is boring, but i sit next to my ex jamie, whom i'm really good friends with i like to belive, and my other friend kierron (also an ex, makes me seem like a whore, but they're the only two i swear) was throwing jaffa cakes across the room at us, and we were throwing them. yesterday it was maryland mini's because we run out of jaffa cakes *sad face*, but aarron (antoher friend, but NOT an ex.) crushed them up because he was annoyed. proberly because chelsea, a girl who did mine and jamie throwing for us, threw it and it bounced on his head. she yelled 'put a donk on it'. was funny.

but yeah i've had a good week, and i'm feeling good. and exctited. on tuesday it's my two year anniversary with my BF. yay.
speak soon
bye.

mein samstag...

my saturday, well it's been alright i s'pose. i went to town with mummaaaaa and got some ankle boots and a mirror. which i've been waiting a year for. literally. so yeah that was cool. i've been thinking about getting my hair cut like frankie sandford (the saturdays). i don't want to ask my mum yet because i've only just had my hair cut in the style that it's in like 4 months ago, and my bf has pretty long hair, so people will take the piss that his hair is longer than mine :/ shizzle. but i reeealy like her hair. i've been trying to get on to virtual hairstylists all afternoon but sadly my internet has been cocking up today, pooooooooooooo. i've been watching the saturdays 24/7 as well. i had nothing better to do so i'm doing that.

oh and JLS on paul o'grady? was a nice suprise seeing as i was going to watch it and then found out they were on, made my friday that did :) aston. one word. yummy ;). yes. yes. yes. i have an obsession with mr merrygold, but who doesn't?! ;)

anyway, i had my first full week of school this week. was alright, i'm liking this year more because i've ditched all the crappy subjects. which is all goooooooooood :) 

so yeah life is coming along good atm. and i bought the saturdays album today as well, it's amazing, well done ladieeeeees! <3

bye. MWAH!

year 10...

so i'm officially back at school now. went back on thursday, got mein timetable and went from there. it's alright atm i suppose. but i've only been back two days so i can't really judged it yet tbh. it does make me feel grown up. and i did have a right old chuckle to myself when key stage 3 dudeees were getting iBehaves for geography, tech and that. i sat there thinking 'muhahaha i ditched that, i never have to do that again.'. my teachers are pretty good, i have the same R.E teacher as last year (serious hot-ness), and my pdls teacher is good as well. that is if it's the one i think it is. y'know in waterloo road the teacher chris mead? yeah well this teacher looks like him and i think he's hot, so that'll be fun ;)

lessons are alright, got some homework, but it's only a matter of time untill i start counting down the days until summer again. but no use complaining, i'll only want to go back to school when it's all over.