i'm off to play squash today with my best friends, never been in my life, so i have absolutely no idea what i'm doing! apparently the ball is bloody tiny and made of rubber. that's gonna fail, but i know we'll have a laugh!
i'm off to tesco's with my sister in a bit, need to go get some new heels for tonight. me, mum, dad and katie are going out for a meal to the marriot hotel with our grandparents, and my current heals are too small for me. plus katie wants to wear them, so i'm buying new ones from tesco's. i would go to new look, but i'm busy this afternoon failing at squash so tesco's it is. i didn't force my sister to come with me, my mother did. it's because there have been some reports about rapes around our area (aaahh!) and she doesn't want me out on my own. i don't understand why, no ones going to rape me, but i'll give her the peace of mind.
i'm looking forward to going out later, mum said i could have a three course dinner if i go on the cross trainer tomorrow morning, we're both doing it, because we're both watching our weight and we both want a nice meal.
so long all, have a great day now! <3
Saturday 29 January 2011
Wednesday 26 January 2011
a weighty issue.
i've fallen victim to the one subject that consumes just about EVERY teenage girl to ever walk this messed up earth.
weight issues.
i'm in a desperate attempt to lose weight, over xmas i indulged and put some weight, and i'm determined to lose it and more.
i want to be thin, i don't want to be fat, if i was fat i would feel like i have no control over myself. i want to control the way my body looks every minute of every day. and i'll try everything in my power to do that.
every one of my friends thinks they're fat, even though they aren't. they fallen victim to it too. it affects every teenage girl and there's nothing i can do to stop the way i'm feeling. help.
weight issues.
i'm in a desperate attempt to lose weight, over xmas i indulged and put some weight, and i'm determined to lose it and more.
i want to be thin, i don't want to be fat, if i was fat i would feel like i have no control over myself. i want to control the way my body looks every minute of every day. and i'll try everything in my power to do that.
every one of my friends thinks they're fat, even though they aren't. they fallen victim to it too. it affects every teenage girl and there's nothing i can do to stop the way i'm feeling. help.
Saturday 15 January 2011
love. live. life.
i'm trying to get back into the swing of blogging. i've been quite slack lately and i want to keep up with it. blogging is my way of getting my feelings across, it's my online journal to be honest.
i've an awful week to be perfectly honest. tuesday was the worst day by far though. the only good thing to come out of it was my english result. we had to write an essay on texting and mobile phonest. most. boring. thing. ever. 3 hours of my life that i'm never going to get back. but anyway, on wednesday we found out our results, and i got a B. i was proud of myself, i'd tried hard and my work had paid off. yesterday i found out that the boundaries had been moved and my mark had gone up to an A! i was even more proud of myself. other than that my week has been pretty crap.
i've got the opticians today, i'm like 5 years overdue! so i kind of need to go. i wonder if they do it differently? i havn't had my eyes tested since i was 10 and i vaguely remember looking at letters on a board that got smaller as you went down, and touching something. the rest is a blur. i wonder if its all changed now? i'll ask my sister, she goes often because she has glasses.
i've only been back at school a week and a half and i'm already in desperate need of a holiday. my school have been so mean and just piled the homework on me. which isn't a nice thing to do on their behalf. and we're also doing work experience, we should be finding out our placements soon. until then we're working from this green booklet, which basically tells us all this stuff about how to make a good impression on an employer yadda yadda. it's pretty boring, but i guess it's meant to be helpful, so i won't be too critical. just yet...
when we do this kind of thing i really want to grow up. i want to leave school, get a car, buy a house, get a job and start living. i'm half way between becoming an adult and leaving childhood. i hate being classed as a child, i want to be treated like a grown up. i'm 15 not 2! but i guess when i'm 18 i'll question why i wanted to grow up. when i've got bills to pay and lunch boxes to fill i'll ask why i wanted to leave my childhood home. i don't want to leave my mum and dad. in some way i just want to be a little kid again, when i had no worries. but others i want to be grown up and fulfill my dreams and live my life the way i want to.
being a teenager is so goddamn annoying, hormones are flying everywhere, one minute your really happy, the next you're on the floor in tears. decisions need to made. some big some small, but everyone feels like it's a life or death situtation. why is life so hard? :/
i've an awful week to be perfectly honest. tuesday was the worst day by far though. the only good thing to come out of it was my english result. we had to write an essay on texting and mobile phonest. most. boring. thing. ever. 3 hours of my life that i'm never going to get back. but anyway, on wednesday we found out our results, and i got a B. i was proud of myself, i'd tried hard and my work had paid off. yesterday i found out that the boundaries had been moved and my mark had gone up to an A! i was even more proud of myself. other than that my week has been pretty crap.
i've got the opticians today, i'm like 5 years overdue! so i kind of need to go. i wonder if they do it differently? i havn't had my eyes tested since i was 10 and i vaguely remember looking at letters on a board that got smaller as you went down, and touching something. the rest is a blur. i wonder if its all changed now? i'll ask my sister, she goes often because she has glasses.
i've only been back at school a week and a half and i'm already in desperate need of a holiday. my school have been so mean and just piled the homework on me. which isn't a nice thing to do on their behalf. and we're also doing work experience, we should be finding out our placements soon. until then we're working from this green booklet, which basically tells us all this stuff about how to make a good impression on an employer yadda yadda. it's pretty boring, but i guess it's meant to be helpful, so i won't be too critical. just yet...
when we do this kind of thing i really want to grow up. i want to leave school, get a car, buy a house, get a job and start living. i'm half way between becoming an adult and leaving childhood. i hate being classed as a child, i want to be treated like a grown up. i'm 15 not 2! but i guess when i'm 18 i'll question why i wanted to grow up. when i've got bills to pay and lunch boxes to fill i'll ask why i wanted to leave my childhood home. i don't want to leave my mum and dad. in some way i just want to be a little kid again, when i had no worries. but others i want to be grown up and fulfill my dreams and live my life the way i want to.
being a teenager is so goddamn annoying, hormones are flying everywhere, one minute your really happy, the next you're on the floor in tears. decisions need to made. some big some small, but everyone feels like it's a life or death situtation. why is life so hard? :/
Tuesday 11 January 2011
what a screw up.
my day has probably been one of the worst days of my life.
i woke up this morning feeling perfectly fine, i had german today, and i love this subject, so i was instantly in a good mood because of that.
went to school, got into maths, and my hair was a mess. bad thing #1. i had left it down today, because i rarely do, so i decided not to straigten it as much and go natural-ish. but that went wrong and i looked like i had just gotten out of bed all day.
then my boy mates Jamie and Aarron, thought it would be funny to take the piss out of me. in year 9 i constantly got jokes from them about the size of my forehead, which they tell me is large :( so they decided to bring that up again bad thing #2 . then Aarron started taking the piss out my last name, saying things like "buttrape." and "buttkiss" bad thing #3 so overall my maths lesson was a failure, and that was only first lesson.
i then had PDLS and Jamie thought it would be funny to take my scarf and wind me up about that. bad thing #4
break was next, and one of my friends says to me "what has happened to your hair?!" i felt like a mess. i felt like a dog. i was then talking to another friend about shoe size and what colour socks we were wearing. so i slipped my school pumps off to show her, and my shoes were knicked. they were then thrown around and ended up in the bin. bad thing #5 one of my other boy mates Kierron picked it out and then thought it would be funny to throw it back in. bad thing #6 the only boy who was decent enough to pick it out was James, they were dirty so he cleaned them for me and gave them back. The only boy who has been nice to me all day. I was really upset at this point and started crying so my friends Katrina and Lauren were hugging me.
I was upset for the rest of the day and i've felt awful. i just needed a mummy cuddle. so when i came home that was the first thing i did.
and to make matters worse, someone has gone and upset my best friend Katrina, so that has made my day EVEN worse.
i hope you have all had a good day today (:
i woke up this morning feeling perfectly fine, i had german today, and i love this subject, so i was instantly in a good mood because of that.
went to school, got into maths, and my hair was a mess. bad thing #1. i had left it down today, because i rarely do, so i decided not to straigten it as much and go natural-ish. but that went wrong and i looked like i had just gotten out of bed all day.
then my boy mates Jamie and Aarron, thought it would be funny to take the piss out of me. in year 9 i constantly got jokes from them about the size of my forehead, which they tell me is large :( so they decided to bring that up again bad thing #2 . then Aarron started taking the piss out my last name, saying things like "buttrape." and "buttkiss" bad thing #3 so overall my maths lesson was a failure, and that was only first lesson.
i then had PDLS and Jamie thought it would be funny to take my scarf and wind me up about that. bad thing #4
break was next, and one of my friends says to me "what has happened to your hair?!" i felt like a mess. i felt like a dog. i was then talking to another friend about shoe size and what colour socks we were wearing. so i slipped my school pumps off to show her, and my shoes were knicked. they were then thrown around and ended up in the bin. bad thing #5 one of my other boy mates Kierron picked it out and then thought it would be funny to throw it back in. bad thing #6 the only boy who was decent enough to pick it out was James, they were dirty so he cleaned them for me and gave them back. The only boy who has been nice to me all day. I was really upset at this point and started crying so my friends Katrina and Lauren were hugging me.
I was upset for the rest of the day and i've felt awful. i just needed a mummy cuddle. so when i came home that was the first thing i did.
and to make matters worse, someone has gone and upset my best friend Katrina, so that has made my day EVEN worse.
i hope you have all had a good day today (:
Sunday 2 January 2011
Happy New Year
Happy new year!
Wow 2011 already. 2010 flew by! Quicker than I thought it would!
I had such a good year in 2010. It really was one of the BEST years of my life!
In 2010 I:
- Went to italy with the school.
- Visited belgium and got to see all the WW1 graves.
- Went to cyprus with the family.
- Saw JLS live in concert with my best friend.
- Reached 2 years with my boyfriend.
- Started year 10.
- Got an A* in my German test.
- Made a new friend.
I achieved/did quite a lot in 2010. I hope 2011 is just as good. I do have the normal set of new years resolutions. Eat less. Loose weight. Yadda yadda. But I want to be happy this year, and try exceptionally hard in school. I want to make the most of today. Because you never know what tomorrow will bring.
So here's to 2011, come what may.
Wow 2011 already. 2010 flew by! Quicker than I thought it would!
I had such a good year in 2010. It really was one of the BEST years of my life!
In 2010 I:
- Went to italy with the school.
- Visited belgium and got to see all the WW1 graves.
- Went to cyprus with the family.
- Saw JLS live in concert with my best friend.
- Reached 2 years with my boyfriend.
- Started year 10.
- Got an A* in my German test.
- Made a new friend.
I achieved/did quite a lot in 2010. I hope 2011 is just as good. I do have the normal set of new years resolutions. Eat less. Loose weight. Yadda yadda. But I want to be happy this year, and try exceptionally hard in school. I want to make the most of today. Because you never know what tomorrow will bring.
So here's to 2011, come what may.
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