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so i havn't written in exactly a week, but the reason being is i've had nothing to post about. my life is pretty boring.

although my friend slept round on saturday and i went to my grandma's on sunday. not that that is interesting to you. but aaaaah well :)

i'm having a major issue with my so-called sister. i'm actually beginning to despise her. and i hate saying that, you're not meant to hate your sibling, but that's the way it is heading. so don't know how this is going to turn out.

i'm back to school in two days, the big year 1-0. well, people are making a big deal out of it. 'it's so scary.' yeeaah you said that about year 9 and that wasn't scary. i'm just interested in getting my timetable and getting back into the routine. the funny thing is, i was complaining about having routines, and feeling like i have to follow a schedule, but with school, it's nice to have order and know what is going on, other things? not so much. waterloo road is back tomorrow night *cheer*, which is good. i suppose in a way, it'll get me in the mood for school? if that makes sense? so i'm kinda glad that it is back on tomorrow night. i'm all set to go, got all my equipment etc. you buy all this stuff and chances are you won't use half of it :L but it doesn't hurt to buy it just in case ;) the sad thing is i'm kindaa looking forward to going back to school, but i say that now, and by friday i'll be counting down the days until the summer again :L but at least i can look back on this summer and smile. it was a good holiday, i mean first holiday abroad with the family? a-maz-ing, despite the horrendous heat, but that's another story!

i'm going to make the most of my last day of freedom tomorrow, starting with a long lie-in, then seeing the boyfriend, followed by waterloo road. looks like tomorrow is going to be good, so i'm all set to go :)

i'm also very proud of myself, i've read two books in two days. well that's a lie, one of the books i've read because we are studying it in english next year, but i only know this because i overheard my english teacher telling the smartest girl in our class that we were studying it, and what annoyed me is the fact that she gave her the book to read so she could get a headstart. she could've given the book to someone with not as much intelligence. now if she gets a good grade she's going to go around and rub everyone's noses in it. and i read a book that is my friends that i've had for ageeeeeeeeees, so i thought i would dump that on her on the first day back. how nice am i? ;)

my school bag is sat on my floor all packed ready for me to pick up on thursday. i've left it in a stupid place, i wake up to it every morning and it reminds me that i have school soon :/
anyway
au revoir (pronounced olive war in my case :L)

boredom has sunk in.

so i've done today either. i'm sat at the dining room table, iPod headphones in my ears, although i'm not listening to anything at all. and i'm bummed. i have to go back to school next thursday. kinda scared, starting GCSE's, but kinda excited, because i get to see people i havn't seen for ages. so it's good :)

i'm pretty proud of myself too, i've uploaded two videos onto youtube. http://www.youtube.com/user/HannahMarieButtriss
^ the link to my channel. watch them both. they're JLS videos i warn you ;) but yeah, and i also wrote into bliss and did the story thing. the theme was 'my green dress'. i found it very hard to find a decent storyline. but i did it.

so that's what i did yesterday and today, nothing exciting. but my life is pretty boring :)

i'm seeing my boyfriend tomorrow, which'll  be good i guess :/

so that's what i've been up to. anyone beat it :P?

sunday :/

i'm actually so bored, have nothing to do that i'm writing in my blog for the 3rd time today. i've sat on my computer all day, as i said i would earlier, and i havn't moved at all.

i was thinking of tidying up my room, but i got rid of that idea the minute i thought of it, sunday is the day of rest, and tidying up isn't resting! so my plan, made up just now, is to move my computer so i'm sat on my  bed with it, instead of on the desk, and put on a couple of friends episodes, just the way to make me smile on a boring sunday afternoon. and then later on i'm going to try for the millionth time to get back onto the JLS website, it isn't working for me today :( sad times SAD! it's hasn't been all day, so i did what i've done for the past 4 days in a row. watched JLS videos on youtube. because i'm that sad, and i have nothing to do. but i did enjoy it, alot. i mean who wouldn't want to sit on their computer and laugh their head off all the time? oh and get to see aston merrygold ;) now that is good. so yeah.

                                               plan for sunday (or what is left of it.);

                                              * sit on bed. (lousy, but i plan to do it.)

                                              * watch friends episodes.

                                              * try JLS website.

                                             * watch JLS videos.

                                             * play another game of solitare and purble place

so yeah?

i woke up this morning to the sun shining, which is always a nice way to start off your day isn't it? anyway, i sat up in bed and had a nice cup of tea made especially by my mother and sat staring at my aston merrygold and jls shrine just to the right of my bed. i'm actually obsessed with them. if you were in my shoes for even a day you would see just how obsessed i am. but anyway, i tend to look at my posters in the morning before i get the energy to get up and do something. which can take a long time. some days longer than others, just depends on what my schedule is for that day.

but today i have nothing planned. absolutely nothing. i went on the cross-trainer earlier, which is about the only bit of exercise i do out of school. i'm a pretty darn lazy person. but that's just how i roll ;) so i did my 'exercise' and had a nice bath. which is always a good thing. after my bath i started singing and dancing around my room to my iPod on full blast. you have three guesses to who i was listening too :), i did my hair and turned my computer on. and this is where i will stay for the rest of the day i guess. only moving to have lunch, dinner and to get drinks. i'm an actual hermit. it's the summer holidays and i've barely been out. but it's not that i don't want to go out at all. it's because my friends are busy. some of them i havn't seen all holiday. but that's because they rarely make the effort with me. i've only seen one of my friends, and that's katrina, and i've only seen her twice. my other close friend becca, well, i havn't seen her since we broke up in JULY! but her mother is iffy and grounds her at the littlest thing so you have to give her that. but at least i have my boyfriend, so i have something to do. and i did go on holiday as well. but yeah. my friends aren't people who like the outside, sometimes i think they are vampires in disguise.

there's under two week until we go back to school now. year 10 -wow. it seems like only yesterday i was in reception, or starting secondary school. jesus time really does fly. and i wasn't even having fun  whilst it did! i'm kinda looking forward to going back to school. at least i don't have to do the subjects i absolutely hate any more. except maths - eurgh! and it's a whole new scheme, if you get what i mean. but it's scary too, because this actually matters. i mean it mattered in the past, but this is my future that this affects. scary!

but i'm not going to let it bring me down. and i'm going to try and salvage the rest of my holiday and make the most of it, so here's to summer! however crappy it may be right about now!

i'm a space bound rocket ship.

i'm a 14 year old girl, and i'm pretty normal. well, i'm my interpretation of normal. i don't have a wacky taste in music. i don't have a unique dress sense. i don't do any extra-curricular activities. and i don't shine out for any particular reason. from reading that, i'm pretty sure you are close to thinking i'm a boring person and that i have no qualities at all. but trust, i'm not like that at all. some people tell me that i'm funny? if that's a quality? i'll do my best to make you smile when you are down and i'll be there for you when everyone else has abandoned you. that's me :)

i want to be a teacher of special-needs or a social worker when i'm older. these are my choices because i want to help children who don't have a life like you and me, have the best one possible. i want to feel like i have made someone's life better and helped them achieve their potential.

the ironic thing is, i can give other people advice, and help them through tough times, but i can never use my own advice. i always run to my mother, or close friends. but it's in human nature to run to someone who gives you solace when you feel low. and when you are low, you don't think straight and try to get yourself out of the mess. you rely on those around you, and it's times like those when you realise who is going to be there for you when no one else is. and truth be told, alot of the time, alot of people will run away. because on the first sight of danger, we run away, because we are selfish, self-centred and scared.

this is just a little peek at life through my eyes. it takes 15 seconds to judge someone, lets see what your view is of me in the time it took you to read this.